Unpredictable

It aches inside when i see the pain in their eyes. All of them.
I wanted to much to help my her.. but how? i duno how to start.
Everyone’s starting to fall sick, meet with sth unlucky, injured, hurt..

I want to care for each n everyone of them, i really do.

Then, trashed with all the proj datelines.. met with not v good ppl to work with. everything.
I asked myself why m i being so nice? I dont know.

I laughed n cried n told myself ‘ yes, a few more wks.. just a few more’. It gave me tt lil strength. to pass each day.

Competition trainings, proj datelines, tutorials, lecture, revisions, school, friends, people, family..
If i say im not tired n im not worn out, i’d be lying.
But how? i brought it all upon myself.. its my fault.

Its so enriching. yet, its just too packed. i can hardly breathe..

Past 2 days. when i realise my effort was finally appreciated by someone im working with. I almost burst into tears. Too upset, too disappointed.. too overwhelming.

& realise there isnt much people tt really care…

Crashing all down. all at once.

& i cant help it.

Its my first time typing a post while crying.

This is how upset im feeling..

Im in a mess.  screwed up life.