Thank you.

A post filled with gratitude and love.

She may be someone that i never really talked to as much as a good friend, yet without her i wouldnt be deeply in love with music.

My music studio’s boss passed away a few days back. She was the one that watch me grow from a child to a teenager. She witnessed my music journey; at least from the very beginning till how it is now.  Perhaps i may not be the one that she favoured the most, yet i believe she had showered all her students with countless amount of love; an i am one of them.

Rmb when i first step into the music studio, excited yet afraid. She was the one tt welcomes me with an extremely warm smile and lead me to the piano room. She then told me to press a few keys as a try out, looked at my fingers and said ‘ what long fingers you have.. you’ll play well ‘ . Yes, i vividly rmb wad she said.  Its only between us.

Rmb the time when i was in Grade 3 and my mum was facing some financial problem. Hence, i need to stop learning piano becos i wasnt able to pay the fees. However, she was generous and kind enough to persuade my mum not to stop me from my passion.. and eventually we are given the special grant of delaying the payment of fees. I didnt know about it, i didnt know it was her that told my mum not to forbid me from doing something i like. I only know about it a few years later.. How great she was, how her generosity made a huge impact on my life.

Rmb the time she opened up the recital room to let me practise for the upcoming concert; all alone.. Grand piano yes.
That time was a vivid memory, because i never had a chance to play a grand piano except playing for a concert. Thanks to her, a new sense of motivation and inspiration gushed into me when i was sitting there, playing the grand piano.

Rmb a few yrs back, when i get to play for 2 concerts ; in the recital studio and outside the studio (public). I was so nervous my hand was totally icy cold. Yet her words ‘ dont need to worry, you can do it! just enjoy and play it’. It does made feel much better.. really.

There, she always say ‘ 你可以的’.

Now that i really tink back.. i was wondering how would my years of music learning be without her.
I may not be who i am now. I may not be able to play pieces that i love and enjoy the beauty of music as much as i can now.

Someone that i see almost everywk, had only simple ‘ hi-byes’ or only a short conversation.. Yet, i realised she was someone that made a great impact in me – in a way or another.

I often think that i do not have the music talent.. yes, talent. I always believe that talent plays a part. and im always lacking it. Many are able to express their pieces beautifully, but often i cant.
Now, a new surge of inspiration grew within me. Talent, or wadeva it shld be.. I’ll use that least bit of talent in mine and add on the rest with my hard work and determination.

Dearest Mrs Tan,

Thank you so much, so much.
Your support for the past 6 years is deeply appreciated.

Its another wake up call for me, shaking me up. Reminding me how much music means, how much more i shld be doing than just this. How important it is to not be another letdown..

Thank you again,

For reminding me and make me remember those little pieces of motivation.

A pity you are gone, but i promise i’ll do my best.

May you live well in another world, i am sure you will.

Loves.

Life, This is.
Good ones gone, bad ones stay.
And i comfort myself by telling myself that the bad ones stay because they’ll need to receive their retributions.

How many times must i realise the importance and value of life only when one is gone..
Live your life beautifully.