gd day?

my mood is alrdy dampened by this morning’s physics paper, wad a gd start fr e day uh. HA. wad can u do? tt paper suck like shit. read many past yr’s paper.. and i tot its totally so different -.-” & i tink e whole lvl will agree tt the paper is sooo tough >< all e efforts studying n trying to get some facts fr e whole of ytd are all pt to waste. total wastage! maybe among the many things tt i studied, one or two qn came out? LOL. ok, forget it.

ytd was absoulutely a…. not v gd labour day -.-”

i woke up with a super good mood n i even made brkfast fr my sis n zhi. & i even read newspaper. e WHOLE news paper. took me like an hr or sth. bt i find it v beneficial, esp fr ss. (: nt bad , i shall try reading newspaper everyday fr nw on =)
k.. so i started studying phy aftr tt. & i hated wad i heard aftr tt..

everything is so pathetic? yes v pathetic. i pitied myself ytd, when i’ve nvr ever pitied myself BEFORE. i tot my life is so so nice with a nice nice family. there’s nth fr me to pity myself.

yet, this thought struck me - wad’s with my family nw?
i’m more than happy that mummy gt a stall at chinatown, whre she always wanted. & im looking forward to it cos i tink it’ll bring the best business among all the stalls.
Today is e day of e opening.
she requested me to help her everyday fr the peak hrs 6-9 pm, i’ll try my best to go. yes, i will. moreover, she’s my mum isnt it.
but she said, nxt wk. fyi, im having exams consecutively fr mon to thurs. yes, everyday. but here, i shld be a gd girl n help out rite.. i should be.
saturday n sunday- definitely a must to help, so i shall just pt aside that.
i noe u wldnt mind me nt achieving gd results if i helped u & bcos i always appeared be so relax during exams time.. i watch tv, slp, eat n just dont seem to be studying, rite?
u tot i can easily pass the papers, score fr it.. my dear mummy, its nt easy. its not.
i didnt noe how to ans you, as to helping out at the stalls. shld i just say ‘ okayy, i’ll go (: ‘ or ‘ but ive got exams everyday…so i cant go ’
& if i said tt, u’ll either reluctantly say ‘ ok, u study..‘ in tt manner which make me feel guilty of nt helping. n zhi once brought up we’re having exams.. n u said ‘ u can always bring yr books n study there.. ‘ i noe there’s ppl who lives in an even worse condition than us when they nd to work while studying just to earn a living, but i just wanna make it clear that if the business is gd& the crowd is continuous, how e heck can i study when im working? so u mean, rolling popiah n sticking the notes infrnt of me and study?trying hard to get all e facts inside?
3 hrs is nt lil, a few chaps can be covered.
worse still, i can imagine u asking me, why m i studying at the last min? i admit tt i dont revise so consistenly that i dont ve to revise even the day before exam. even the smartest chap will have to study n revise fr the exam nxt day!

so today is the gd date fr opening? ive been wondering.. why do u nd to rush, give me ONE more wk, n i can help you out. cant u start nxt friday? or u really wanted to start so badly?  just tt the crowd is soo gd, n u cant wait to open? or are we that poor that we needed extra earnings immediately?

dad called ytd, while i was studying.. i told hiim twice tt ive got exam tmr,bt he’s so happy becos the crowd there is gd, n kp asking me if i wanted to go. my mum even  wished to open ytd..
bt u noe wad,i was totally, upset. m i overreacting? i dont noe. but i just feel that.. they’re getting mre n mre money oriented? more n more, till e pt where my studies is no longer a concern.
i rmbed that when i let my mum sign on my exam timetable, she promised she wont call me that often becos of exam.yet she’s calling me during my exam period.

sis is also taking her SAT exam, me n zhi having MYE. n its nt tt uve many workers to be deployed to the stalls..all these reasons is nt enough to delay the opening fr a wk?

im just upset by their response, its saddening to me. 
if im having my hols nw n i turn u down, its my fault. but now, i really wonder who’s in e wrong.
ive been tinking hard, very. n tears filled my eyes everytime. shld i cry or laugh nw? ha, i really dont noe.
im stil struggling with exams. i wanted so much to tell them , putting it in a mre direct manner -
can u let me off just fr tis wk?

no. 

sometimes. somtimes.. i do envy others, they dont ve to work in hawker, just sit n home, study relax play. ha, but life like tt is also sucky too. so which life is preffered? none. (:
go out on e rd, get bang by a car, n say bye bye to yr life. HAHAHA , idiot.

so wad to do?
HAHAHAHA. SMILE IT MANS, SMILEEEEE.  
yes, they r my parents.. its my duty to be filial n help out when theres a nd. RITE.

hahahahahaha.
fck.

STUDY! STUDY!
3 hrs x 7 days = 21 hrs, gone.

byebye. time management is impt.
manage yr time well ppl!