satisfication? not now.

seriously im nt feeling v well now. im going to do an emo post, so just close e window if u dont wanna ve yr mood spoilt (: ty. 

its tedious, esp sch work. i must say the upcoming friday wont be a vry nice one. cos its gonna be filled with all the tests. frm the beginning to e end of the day. no longer a happy friday. likewise, nxt wk will be exam. so , no more happy fridayss.. ):

i told myself ; even if no one is motivating me, i’ll still have to and must motivate myself to move on this has been in my mind. so i often ignore ppl ard me. perhaps e more i care , the more i noe, the worse i’ll feel. tink deeper into it, u’ll find wad i say do make sense. (: see i told u, once im satisfied with my life like wad i mentioned earlier on, some things will definitely destroy tt. haha, bingo!

seriously, i duno wad to do and wad to say. all i wanna do is live life my way, ignore ppl tt i dun wanna even care. ignorance is bliss? so ive dragged innocent ppl into e matter, i do feel bad. not tt im not human.. n not to mention, im v sensitive when it concerns ppl’s feelings. not only mine, its e ppl ard me. i do look as if i dun care, hahaha cos i tot thats the only way to stay out fr anth (: so might as well just hack care. rite? so nw, one more ppl is into it. im v sorry, sorry. i duno why, but im saying sorry always. to everyone out there, somehow i just feel tt its all my wrong. so when anyone says its my fault, i seriously dont mind. go ahead n say, cos i agree with tt

i always say this. u dont tell me how to do it, just tell me wad u wan me to do. get straight to e pt. perhaps im too direct, to e pt i’ll hurt anyone out there. i apologise fr tt. but i really cant help it. all u nd to do, its to TELL ME WAD TO DO. (: there isnt a nd to get so many ppl involved. i dont like this, i detest it. i hate making ppl feel weird, as in, feel that they’re in e middle n can do nothing. its nvr a good way to treat ppl like this, really, never. tink it this way, put yrself in his/her shoes. how’d u feel? emo, haha i hate this word too. n i hate ppl who does tt (: no matter hw much u emo, how must comfort is given, all u end up is still consistenly emo-ing. how great, i shall respect u fr tt. i tot my life is damn good now u see, really.

when u can no longer cry at e matter, all u can do is – laugh.
sometimes, its just nothing tt u can do, nothing u can say even though u feel like saying lots of things. so why not, just laughh. haha.

nitemares no longer seemed scary to me. cos ive found out, reality is much more scarier (:
but hw? u cant do anth. everyday is unexpected, it is just like how unexpected every dream can be.
nitemare makes me scream, fear, cry.
but reality makes me scream, fear n cry even much more..

now, im feeling super unwell. knee gives me stupid probs.. mentally,all i can say is im tired. i dun wanna break down nxt wk during exam, so fr e vry least,  tmr. feverish headaches on and off these days. i hate that.. im really not feeling well.

tell me everything is gonna be fine. .